.. call it a persona disorder

sunnuntai 22. elokuuta 2010

Slaughterhouse

In the corner shades
blind man swings the blades

better to work in dark,
said the employer, these days
electricity is so darn expensive
and besides,
you don't need to see the result coz in this job
quantity beats quality.

So
in the corner shades
this man swings his blades
hears the engine somewhere
on his left hand
side and
hears the blades cutting flesh

Never has he seen the actual hall.
the environment is not as important as
               your presence,
said the employer.

He knew the way so
he walked straight just as
he was guided to
                          eleven steps
                                     every day
                         just as
he was guided
every day except on Sundays
he didn't know the way to church so
he stayed at home
reading the paper
                until
he walked to the hall
               again just as
he was guided,
                eleven steps

Blades are on the right,
                   right?
                  Right.
On the right,
            right?
                            Yeah, right.
Which side?
                         Right.
                         Right.

No need to think about the left side.
you don't have anything where
you should have your left hand.
No limb.
No fingers.
Nothing
to move. So don't bother
to move
                           Right.
No, left.

And you hear the engine.
Engine is always there
whether you were there or not, the
engine will be, and
          it runs.
It's on the left but
coz you don't even have an arm, so
no need to reach,
         right?
         Right.

After six years
his right hand got
bored, got
frustrated, got
angry and demanded for
rights
went on a strike and told
that he is doing nothing unless
that lazy ass bastard starts to
do his share

So
in the corner shades
the man swings no blades
shrugs his shoulders and
reaches the left hand
out
and all of a sudden it
was all about pain
                             nothing else
               just
             pain
and all of a sudden it
was
                                                  nothing

it was so dark that
the man didn't see the dead end
sign.

He's replacable,
said the employer and
switched the light
off

engine kept roaring

torstai 19. elokuuta 2010

Just like me

my boy wants to be a serial killer
he told with
a cold tune
himself

happy wide smile
on the little round cheeks

I glanced up
over the paper
at my boy
just about to read some
psychologist's interview about
childrearing

a serial killer?
yes pap, still smiling
well, what's not to like, I laughed
who am I to stop you, lil' man?

I leaned back and
reached for the drawer under the
coffee machine

I always thought you'd apply for some
acknowledged university and
become a highly educated professor

I grabbed the biggest knife this
house held

but I guess I can't live vicariously
so you do what you want to

I handed the knife over the
table right
under my boy's eyes

so can I have the honour to be your first victim
go ahead,
make my day
make the day for both
of us

and my boy began crying
cried as hell

what's the matter, son
you're a serial killer
it can never get personal

and he cried even harder
and then came my wife
heard the whole thing from the top
started screaming
louder and
louder
louder

recognized some words like
                      inhumane
           bastard
                                              asshole
                           sick 
    maniac
                                       prison
                 cops 
                          prison
                                              divorce

silence came like a dead end
beyond a hill

they were gone
I think I wasn't really there either

next to the knife was
a package of cereal my boy
was having for breakfast

an ad on the back
how cool cereal killer are you
collect 25 stickers from the inside bottom
and show us how much you just looove
the Sugarpup Strawberry Cereal

I just couldn't stop laughing

fuck the cats and fuck
their fucking cradle and
silverspoon in
       my ass

After party

We left our bodies at my backyard
after the party I had thrown
the last night.

None of us noticed the incident
right away.

Rick, he lives alone in a single flat
goes jogging in the nearby forest
and not much else.
Got one day off after the party
woke up for work early the following morning,
headed for the office.
At first he thought
is this some kind of a game
some theme day again
to raise the spirit?
Ignore Rick -day
or sumthin'
nobody seemed to notice him, passing 
                       by,
         passing by.
No eyes set upon him, except
the hot secretary at the dining room but
she appeared to look straight through him.
Well what's the big news, said Rick to
himself.
But as the hours passed like
the people just
passing by
passing
                by
and even the head of office
didn't pay any attention to him
and even phoned his home several times
Rick got all pale
and ran out.

Same thing with three other guys.
Hank, Walter and
the black guy, Gus
I think
rhymed with bus
anyway
all encountered the same problem
at home
at work
at clubs
Walt's a teacher and
it was a bit hard to lecture about
ionic bonds when
your class keeps asking
where the hell he is.

Me, I was suffering from
quite bad headache the morning
after the party.
I poured myself some coffee
went to the porch, enjoyed the chill
breeze and read Bukowski for
hours straight.
Can't understand the fuss around him.
After two p.m. came my girlfriend
with her little sister.
I heard the car and
got up to give them a
happy greeting from the door.
So the door opened
So they walked inside
So they walked right through
me and my wide-spread arms.
They called my name
So I called back
they smelled the coffee
they saw the open back door
and so
she screamed
my girlfriend, I mean
grabbed her sister and took her
inside
grabbed the phone, cried
and screamed and
cried again
I managed to see her dial
9 – 1 – 1

I walked towards the open back door
towards the porch and wondered
am I still sleeping,
having a fucking hangover sleep, am I going
to wake up all sweat but
relieved?
I got to the door and realized
that I wasn't going to wake up.
I just kept staring at my backyard
and kept swallowing uneased.
We had left our bodies lying there
in a neat ring, feet
pointing at the centre.
We had forgot our bodies but
it was just too late.

and the headache was still there,
a hammering pain
                               still there.

I know this guy

I know this guy
this guy lives on my street.
He has eight cars and
a kid named Mercedes Benz.
His wife is a beauty, I met her
at a Drag Queen competition the other day
when I was searching my way
to a poetry jam club.
Me, I don't do poems or
hardly even read them but the jam sounded
                nice

I know this guy
this guy lives on my street.
A block away from my house but
still on the street.
I know this guy
the man's a disguise.
A new suit everyday but
the briefcase is the same.
The man wears a hair coz
hat is so tasteless, he says.
Works for amnesty and
speaks for the whales.

I know this guy
the man hanged himself on Sunday when
the rest of the family were at churh while
he complained a real headache.
Well, he wasn't any scout so
he couldn't tie the knot so
he failed to die. A lot
of people got worried about his state of mind so 
he stepped out of
the hospital and went straight to
a pub that night and told his friends
how he was just joking and never
in the danger of choking.
He slapped the bartender's back and
bursted out
"I ain't no scout, I know
nothing about knots."

Well the city had a good laugh and
I was there too, sitting in
the corner table with two
my best friends.
I took a sip from
my beer and said
I know this guy, this guy lives on my street.
"Well, what's the big news?" asked
my other friend
"the whole city's just one street"